If Not This Year

A poem for Tracie Aronson
based on her pencil sketch

by Peter Cardinal

     From Baltimore to this forgotten place 
     We moved our horse and plow and rake 
     And cut the sod and a built a house 
     And planted corn and bought a cow. 
     We said our prayers and planted seed 
     And made or scavenged all our needs. 
     Oh, we were certain of success 
     If not this year, then surely next. 
      
     That year the smut took all our corn. 
     We sold the calf before it was born, 
     But the horse earned his keep with the neighbor's mare. 
     With mud and moss we sealed our lair 
     Against the winter's cold return. 
     And for our carpet: fronds of fern. 
     We laughed to say we'd feathered our nest. 
     No, not this year, but maybe next. 
      
     The church was founded on the rock 
     Of Round Hill's hemlock-crested top. 
     But lightening struck and burned it down 
     With half the meadows here around. 
     Since then we've met in barns to pray, 
     In houses, or on reddish clay. 
     But we will have our church-house yet -- 
     If not this year, then maybe next. 
      
     This winter's snows went early down 
     Revealing fields of lovely brown. 
     And then the rains began to fall 
     With lightening, wind, and hail, and all -- 
     This springtime's floods the worst we've seen. 
     The fields were washed out down the stream. 
     But we're a young and stalwart set. 
     If not this year, then maybe next. 
      
     The waning moon last night was gone. 
     This morning's sun ignites the dawn. 
     And now, besides the rocks and clay, 
     Some little sprouts have seen the day: 
     Potatoes and some dandelion. 
     Their sprouting surely is a sign. 
     Yes, God is here and so are we 
     And I am certain we'll succeed. 
      
     If not this year, then surely next.


April 16, 1994
(June, 1999)